Today my periamma (my mom's elder sister) turns 70. I can't write enough to say how much of an influence she has had in my life and how much I owe her for everything I am today.
I really would have liked to be with her on this special day. I did call her promptly and wished her over the phone. Here's wishing her a very happy birthday once again and I pray for her success in her brave battle against cancer
Monday, February 18, 2008
Sunday, February 3, 2008
What-IF
Nearly everyday we all go through thoughts that circle around 'What-IF.'
What-IF this happens or that happens, how things would have changed if I had done some things differently, how I would have been if I took another route instead of the one that I am taking. Sometimes we go to the extent of thinking and talking about 'What-IF's' in a way that we start living them instead of perceiving them as mere thoughts.
One such major 'What-IF' is about life and death. In January 2008 (not a week ago), I had a near-death experience, where I was in the ICU and the doctor's could not predict the outcome to my husband. Those 3 days were sheer hell for him while I was lying unconscious, unaware of what was happening around me. The first thought that came to my mind when I woke up was why am I in this place and not with my family. The nurse told me that they almost lost me and they could be certain that I was out of danger only after I had woken up. As you can imagine, I was shaken by this experience and the only 'What-IF' that came to my mind was, "What IF I had died? Would I have tried/ fought to come back or as we see in a lot of movies, hover over my husband and kids and feel bad for not being able to spend more time with them?" After I came home, I realized how many people (including my family, friends and even co-workers) were scared for me and were praying and hoping for my safe return and even more glad that I am back safe and sound, better than ever. Boy, Am I glad to be ALIVE and KICKING:)
This near-death experience had made me think about my priorities and 'What-IFs." No matter what you think you could have become, it is only a thought that makes you lose your perspective and hides your present from you. It has made me realize that by taking each day as a fresh new start, you can try and correct your mistakes, each new day is a chance for you to be a better person than you already are, each day is a chance for you to make people around you special and loved.
Ultimately it does not matter if you had a lot of money or a Phd or whatever it is that you don't have right now, if you don't have people who love you and hug you and tell you that 'Everything will be alright, no matter what,' you don't have anything (even if you are the most __________(whatever, fill in the blanks yourself) person.
Revaluate your priorities and be thankful to a power higher than us, to that power that has granted me a second chance to be with the people I love and the people who love me.
All the best for those who have been given a second chance and for others who are lucky enough to live their first chances. Not everybody will get a second chance so do make best use of this one life that we get and be thankful.
~Laks
The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives." - Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)
What-IF this happens or that happens, how things would have changed if I had done some things differently, how I would have been if I took another route instead of the one that I am taking. Sometimes we go to the extent of thinking and talking about 'What-IF's' in a way that we start living them instead of perceiving them as mere thoughts.
One such major 'What-IF' is about life and death. In January 2008 (not a week ago), I had a near-death experience, where I was in the ICU and the doctor's could not predict the outcome to my husband. Those 3 days were sheer hell for him while I was lying unconscious, unaware of what was happening around me. The first thought that came to my mind when I woke up was why am I in this place and not with my family. The nurse told me that they almost lost me and they could be certain that I was out of danger only after I had woken up. As you can imagine, I was shaken by this experience and the only 'What-IF' that came to my mind was, "What IF I had died? Would I have tried/ fought to come back or as we see in a lot of movies, hover over my husband and kids and feel bad for not being able to spend more time with them?" After I came home, I realized how many people (including my family, friends and even co-workers) were scared for me and were praying and hoping for my safe return and even more glad that I am back safe and sound, better than ever. Boy, Am I glad to be ALIVE and KICKING:)
This near-death experience had made me think about my priorities and 'What-IFs." No matter what you think you could have become, it is only a thought that makes you lose your perspective and hides your present from you. It has made me realize that by taking each day as a fresh new start, you can try and correct your mistakes, each new day is a chance for you to be a better person than you already are, each day is a chance for you to make people around you special and loved.
Ultimately it does not matter if you had a lot of money or a Phd or whatever it is that you don't have right now, if you don't have people who love you and hug you and tell you that 'Everything will be alright, no matter what,' you don't have anything (even if you are the most __________(whatever, fill in the blanks yourself) person.
Revaluate your priorities and be thankful to a power higher than us, to that power that has granted me a second chance to be with the people I love and the people who love me.
All the best for those who have been given a second chance and for others who are lucky enough to live their first chances. Not everybody will get a second chance so do make best use of this one life that we get and be thankful.
~Laks
The expected is just the beginning. The unexpected is what changes our lives." - Meredith Grey (Grey's Anatomy)
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
MIA
Not that I'm an avid blogger, but I have to admit that I have been MIA for the past couple of weeks. Something really terrible happened and L was admitted in the ICU for 2.5 days, hence the lull. All is fine now and she is back in action. Not that I plan to post every single day after today, but I will at least try to be regular in my posts
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Pongalo Pongal
We celebrated Pongal on Monday 1/14 in spite of being a week day. L made the traditional ven pongal and chakkarai pongal which was very delicious. We (read "me") couldn't wait for the neivedhiyam to be over and wanted to eat it right away. However He had other plans since we didn't offer it to Him, as for some reason we couldn't open the cooker. Apparently the safety valve wouldn't release. It took a lot of iterations from both L and me to finally pry it open before we could eat.
Anyways Happy Pongal to one and all
Anyways Happy Pongal to one and all
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Resolutions for 2008
I'm not the kind of person who actually makes resolutions around New year, much less publish it on a blog. If there is something that needs to be done, I try to do it as & when needed and not actually wait for the New Year. This year I wanted to be different and hence I have decided to make a manageable number (say 3 to 4) of resolutions for this year and see how I'm doing at regular intervals throughout the year. Here is the list (in no particular order)
1) Call my parents and L's parents regularly every week on Fri/Sat night for us. This resolution tops the list for this year as our calling for the last year was absolutely erratic and unpredictable. This seems like an easy resolution, but I put it on the top of the list as I feel that it might be difficult for us to keep it up :-)
3) Make a conscious effort to spend some defined quality time with L (even if the kids are yelling in the background :-))
4) Make a clear decision about certain muggy things - do we buy a home in USA?, when do we return to India for good etc
4) Make a clear decision about certain muggy things - do we buy a home in USA?, when do we return to India for good etc
Sunday, January 6, 2008
Pirandha Naal Vaazhthukkal to Isaipuyal
For 15 years from 1977 to 1992 it seemed as though there was only one music director for South Indian films - Maestro Ilayaraaja. When Mani decided to make Roja, he was looking for a new music director, for the first time, after a fallout with Ilayaraja who had been part of all of Mani's films previously. Roja released on Aug 15th 1992. The previously unknown music director, A.R.Rahman became an overnite sensation after that and there has been no looking back ever since. Today is Rahman's birthday and I wanted to wish him for his immense contribution to music - introducing new vocal talent, innovations in sound, taking Indian film music to newer heights and above all being extremely humble after having achieved so much....Hats off to you A.R.Rahman (yes, it is coming from a hard-core Ilayaraja fan) and wish you a very happy birthday!!
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
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